Monday, September 04, 2006
hurt me no more...
"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamubersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 ygberiman."Surah Al-Imran ayat 139
i'm tired of being here, doing these..
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu(menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan),dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh,di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah(dengan kekuatan pertahanan didaerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya,kamu berjaya(mencapai kemenangan)."
i juz don't know what to do with myself..
"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45
but i'm alone..
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku,tidak ada Tuhan selaindrNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."Surah At-Taubah ayat 129
will I end up like this..
"... ..dan jgnlah kamuberputus asa dr rahmatAllah.Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmatAllah melainkan kaum yg kafir."Surah Yusuf ayat 12
fid signing off @ 1:36 AM
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
BLESSED THE BROKEN ROADSI set out on a narrow way many years ago Hoping I would find true love along the broken roadBut I got lost a time or two Wiped my brow and kept pushing through I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you Every long lost dream lead me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you I think about the years I spent just passing through I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you But you just smile and take my hand You've been there you understand It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true Every long lost dream lead me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you Now Im just rolling home Into my lovers arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you... (,^^)(--,)
fid signing off @ 6:58 AM
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There's some things that I regret
Some words I wish had gone unsaid
Some starts that had some better endings
Been some bad times I 've been through
Damage I could not undo
Some things I wish I could do all all over again
But it don't really matter
When life gets that much harder
It makes you that much stronger
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned
From every tear that had to fall from my eyes
From every day I wondered how I'd get through the night
From every change life has thrown me
I'm thankful for every break in my heart
I'm grateful for every scar
There's mistakes that I have made
Some chances I just threw away
Some roads I never should've taken
Been some signs I didn't see
Hearts that I hurt needlessly
Some wounds that I wish I could have one more chance to mend
But it don't make no difference
The past can't be re-written
You get the life you're given
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned
And all the things that break you
Are all the things that make you strong
You can't change the past coz it's gone
And you gotta just move on
It's all lessons learned (--,)
fid signing off @ 6:37 AM
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Friday, August 25, 2006
Menanti Sebuah Jawaban
aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
aku tlah terpagut oleh cintamu
menelusup hariku dengan harapan
namun kau masih terdiam membisu
sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
mendekap penuh harapan ‘tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
menanti sebuah jawaban ‘tuk memilikimu
betapa derunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
semoga kau tahu isi hatiku
dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...
Padi~
fid signing off @ 7:43 PM
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Friday, June 16, 2006
long time no write ait..
so bz..
til then..
hik..daaaa~
fid signing off @ 8:59 PM
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
sayu t'dgr suaranya..
sering m'cari tentangnya...
tak terasa pun pabila ianya pergi..
.tapi sepi bila dia tak kembali...
aku..yang mencari..
cuba mencari dengan hati yang suci...
itu lebih indah dari memilikinya tapi ku hargai..
pastinya ia akan datang padaku tanpa seruan...
pastinya jua akan pergi tanpa alasan...
akan ku kejarnya sblumnya hilang dari pandanganku...
kerna hadirnya adalah anugerah yang tiada bandingan...
thanx Allah 4 da gift of.....
IMAN...
fid signing off @ 2:41 AM
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Friday, December 03, 2004
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me I've been alone all along..
*** dedicate this song. feel like dying everytime i hear it..vids ni lagi sedih..
life is always like dat right? only the strong will survive ('',)..
a friend had once said to me and i still remember it til now..dat..
"GOOD THINGS ALWAYS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT"
fid signing off @ 4:20 AM
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
ATRIAL SEPTAL DEFECT
ASD is a common congenital cardiac disorder comprising 5-10% of congenital heart disease. ASD is characterized by a defect in the interatrial septum that allows pulmonary venous return to pass from the left to the right atrium, resulting in right atrial and right ventricular chamber dilation, the extent of which is dependent on shunt size. Patients (especially those with small or isolated defects) are usually asymptomatic through the first 3 decades of life, although more than 70% become impaired by the fifth decade. Early surgical closure of most types of ASD is recommended.
Recently, ASDs have more often been closed by a variety of catheter-implanted occlusion devices rather than by direct surgical closure using cardiopulmonary bypass. These devices are placed through a femoral venous approach and are deployed like an umbrella to seal the septal defect. These devices work best for small, centrally located secundum defects. The type and rate of complications differ among devices, the most common of which is systemic embolization of the device.
The criterion standard in the treatment of ASD is direct closure of the defect using an open approach with extracorporeal support.Usually, a median sternotomy incision is made, and the sternum is split in the midline. Direct arterial and double venous (superior vena cava and inferior vena cava) cannulation are performed. On cardiopulmonary bypass, the aorta is clamped and the heart is arrested with cardioplegia solution. The caval snares are tightened, and the right atrium is opened. Most secundum defects can be closed by direct continuous suture of 3-0 or 4-0 Prolene.
Caution must be taken when directly closing large defects because this can distort the atrium. Large defects that rise superiorly can distort the aortic anulus if closed directly. These ASDs are also best closed using autologous pericardium or synthetic patches of Dacron or polytetrafluoroethylene (PTFE). Care must be taken to completely remove any air or debris from the left atrium and ventricle before coming off cardiopulmonary bypass. Temporary pacing wires are left in place on the right ventricle before closing the chest over drains.
In patients with ostium primum defects, surgical closure is more complicated. The patch must be attached to the septum at the juncture of the mitral and tricuspid valves. Mitral valve repair, including closure of the cleft mitral leaflet and, possibly, annuloplasty, may be necessary to correct or prevent mitral insufficiency. In rare cases, mitral valve replacement may be required.
In sinus venosus defects, partial anomalous pulmonary venous return is typical. One or more of the pulmonary veins primarily drains into the right atrium. The ASD must be patched in such a way as to ensure that the anomalous pulmonary venous drainage is diverted into the left atrium. This may be simple or complex, depending on where the anomalous drainage enters. Many innovative techniques have been developed to redirect pulmonary flow, and the surgeon should be familiar with several approaches. Pulmonary venous return must not be compromised with the redirection because this invariably causes localized venous hypertension and pulmonary complications.
In recent years, minimally invasive approaches to the repair of ASD have garnered significant interest. In most cases, this simply means a smaller incision with different approaches to cardiopulmonary bypass. Examples include partial or full submammary skin incision, hemisternotomy, and limited thoracotomy. Clearly, the goal is to provide better cosmetic results, since these approaches are not associated with less morbidity or mortality.
further readings:
http://www.emedicine.com/med/topic3519.htm
http://www.emedicine.com/ped/topic171.htm
a simpler article:
http://www.ahealthyadvantage.com/topic/topic100586480
hmm,my cousin has ASD and he had undergone an Operation last monday in IJN. juz wanna know more about it ('',) and share it wt u all.
fid signing off @ 8:57 PM
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